I have a shitload of sex these days. Most of it is safe and I had a hot fuck the other night that I have to tell you about.
I was out drinking with some friends and met a cute guy with a gym body. He lived near me, so I asked if he wanted to share a cab home. I told him I was poz and only played safe with HIV- men, and he was okay with it. We did the usual make-out in the cab and got out at his place. We went upstairs and made out, and he unzipped to reveal he was wearing no underwear... and out flopped ten inches of uncut perfection. I went to town, slobbering all over that dick like he had proably never experienced before. He was squirming and whimpering, moaning "Yeah! Fuck yeah..." over and over again.
I came up, kissed him, got a condom and slid it over the monster. He lubed it up and played with my ass a little and then put just the head in. Even now, I always pretend it's bare - even when it's safe, I let my mind pretend a guy is in me raw.
I slid down all the way over it, feeling incredibly full and kind of in pain, but I loved it. I milked his cock with my ass, and he slowly built up his tempo and force until he was jackhammering from below. Then he picked me up and pushed me on my back, pinning my legs overhead and ramming the shit out of me in missionary position.
I looked into his blue eyes and kissed him. He was dripping sweat and started getting verbal.
"Yeah, you like that dick in you? Huh slut?"
"Yeah, give it to me!"
"Fuck yeah, I'm gonna cum in you, you want that?"
"Yeah, fuck me full, man!"
That talk got him going, and he fucked even harder and faster, till I thought he was gonna tear me in half. Finally, he started groaning and tensed up, even though he kept fucking me hard.
"Ohhhhhhhhh yeah! FUCK YEAH! I'm cumming!!!" he said. His face contorted beautifully as waves of pleasure washed over him, and I jerked my own dick and shot a nice creamy load on the under side of my chin. When we were done, he collapsed on top of me, getting my cum all over his chest too. I licked it off and then kissed him.
He just laid there on top for a while, and finally he pulled out. The condom was almost overflowing with his jizz. It felt good to have really hot sex without putting this young stud at risk. I liked it. But when I went home and jerked off before bed, I imagined him flooding my guts with his seed FOR REAL.
I can't wait till they find a cure or a vaccine for this fucking disease so we can have the fun we all deserve. Till then, keep it safe, boys. If you're into bareback, see if you can find a dude who is also into it but will use a condom and be verbal as if the rubber isn't there. You may be surprised how fucking HOT it is!
4.19.2008
4.01.2008
Saturday night
Short and sweet, but I guess I'm telling you about my bare adventures again.
Saturday night I went to a bar in Midtown and got pretty wasted. I ended up in a cab with a really cute guy. He had brown hair, five o'clock shadow, little soul patch. He was about two or three inches taller than me and wore a baseball hat and a hemp necklace. Lean, toned body, really tan.
In the cab we made out like crazy and he started to finger my ass hole inside my underwear. I knew this was going to be a good night but I felt bad because I hadn't disclosed my status. I like to do that earlier on so that I can find another fuck buddy if it scares them off.
So we got to his place up near Columbia and in the elevator up to his apartment I told him I was poz and apologized for not telling him earlier. But I told him I was all about playing safe with neg guys and I hoped he would still find a way to have fun.
"I'm negative," he said. "And we'll definitely have fun."
So we went into his room and I could hear his room mate getting fucked in the next room which was hot. No time passed before his tongue was in my throat and our clothes were on the floor. Next thing I knew I was bent over his bed and he was eating my hole like no one ever had before. It felt amazing and I started moaning. Then he flipped me on my back and shoved his tongue into my mouth again. That's when I felt him pushing his dick into my hole. Bare.
"No, man," I said. "Not cool."
He just sh'ed me and said, "I'm a total top."
I tried to resist. I wanted it, but I hadn't barebacked with a neg guy since learning my status. He leaned down and kissed me. I pulled away.
"This isn't safe for you," I told him.
"I do it all the time," he said back and finished planting his balls against the outside of my hole. "How does that feel?"
I was silent for a minute. It felt amazing and my head was spinning. His dick was nothing special, 7 inches and average thickness. But he knew hot to work it and he started to fuck me in the silence.
"Yeah," he breathed. "You feel so awesome on my dick!"
I moaned.
"I knew you wanted it," he said.
While I enjoyed the sensation as he picked up the pace, I reached down into my jeans pocket and grabbed a condom. I held it out to him. He took it from me and threw it across the room, then started fucking me with hard, jabbing strokes.
"No, bitch! Your ass is mine!" He kissed me with a tenderness that was weird considering the force of the fuck he was unleashing. "You ok?" he asked.
"Yeah, fuck me!" I said. "Harder! Make it hurt!"
"You sure?" he asked, this evil grin on his face.
"FUCK YEAH!" I said.
He started fucking the shit out of me, pounding at me, and corkscrewing. It took my breath away because it hurt so much but the force against my prostate was unbelievable.
It wasn't long before he got that edge in his voice that told me he was getting close.
"You getting close?" I asked him.
"Yeah," he said, wincing. "Unh. UNH! I'm gonna do it! AHHHHHH!" And he tensed up and fell on me, panting. "AHH! AHH!"
That sent me over the edge and I jerked my cock to completion. The idea of his load in me was fucking hot.
After we were done I started to feel really guilty and I knew I shouldn't have let him do it raw. I gave him my number and the number of a clinic where he could get prophylaxis for exposure to HIV, just in case. I got on the downtown 1 train as the sun started to rise, and I cried on the train which was embarrassing. I have to be careful, and he shouldn't have knowingly put himself at risk either. We were both drunk, but it was fucking stupid. Hot. But stupid as hell.
Saturday night I went to a bar in Midtown and got pretty wasted. I ended up in a cab with a really cute guy. He had brown hair, five o'clock shadow, little soul patch. He was about two or three inches taller than me and wore a baseball hat and a hemp necklace. Lean, toned body, really tan.
In the cab we made out like crazy and he started to finger my ass hole inside my underwear. I knew this was going to be a good night but I felt bad because I hadn't disclosed my status. I like to do that earlier on so that I can find another fuck buddy if it scares them off.
So we got to his place up near Columbia and in the elevator up to his apartment I told him I was poz and apologized for not telling him earlier. But I told him I was all about playing safe with neg guys and I hoped he would still find a way to have fun.
"I'm negative," he said. "And we'll definitely have fun."
So we went into his room and I could hear his room mate getting fucked in the next room which was hot. No time passed before his tongue was in my throat and our clothes were on the floor. Next thing I knew I was bent over his bed and he was eating my hole like no one ever had before. It felt amazing and I started moaning. Then he flipped me on my back and shoved his tongue into my mouth again. That's when I felt him pushing his dick into my hole. Bare.
"No, man," I said. "Not cool."
He just sh'ed me and said, "I'm a total top."
I tried to resist. I wanted it, but I hadn't barebacked with a neg guy since learning my status. He leaned down and kissed me. I pulled away.
"This isn't safe for you," I told him.
"I do it all the time," he said back and finished planting his balls against the outside of my hole. "How does that feel?"
I was silent for a minute. It felt amazing and my head was spinning. His dick was nothing special, 7 inches and average thickness. But he knew hot to work it and he started to fuck me in the silence.
"Yeah," he breathed. "You feel so awesome on my dick!"
I moaned.
"I knew you wanted it," he said.
While I enjoyed the sensation as he picked up the pace, I reached down into my jeans pocket and grabbed a condom. I held it out to him. He took it from me and threw it across the room, then started fucking me with hard, jabbing strokes.
"No, bitch! Your ass is mine!" He kissed me with a tenderness that was weird considering the force of the fuck he was unleashing. "You ok?" he asked.
"Yeah, fuck me!" I said. "Harder! Make it hurt!"
"You sure?" he asked, this evil grin on his face.
"FUCK YEAH!" I said.
He started fucking the shit out of me, pounding at me, and corkscrewing. It took my breath away because it hurt so much but the force against my prostate was unbelievable.
It wasn't long before he got that edge in his voice that told me he was getting close.
"You getting close?" I asked him.
"Yeah," he said, wincing. "Unh. UNH! I'm gonna do it! AHHHHHH!" And he tensed up and fell on me, panting. "AHH! AHH!"
That sent me over the edge and I jerked my cock to completion. The idea of his load in me was fucking hot.
After we were done I started to feel really guilty and I knew I shouldn't have let him do it raw. I gave him my number and the number of a clinic where he could get prophylaxis for exposure to HIV, just in case. I got on the downtown 1 train as the sun started to rise, and I cried on the train which was embarrassing. I have to be careful, and he shouldn't have knowingly put himself at risk either. We were both drunk, but it was fucking stupid. Hot. But stupid as hell.
3.14.2008
Doing all right
Thanks to all of you who have written to ask how I am or to ask me to write more. I'm doing great. School has been really busy and has helped me keep from getting too depressed about the whole poz thing.
For a long time I only had protected sex but last week I took a couple more loads. I'm still going to keep telling everyone else to play safe. It's not going to be a picnic when I have to start meds, and I don't want anyone else to feel the same shame and regret. And I definitely don't want anyone to have to see the look on your parents faces when you tell them. That was tough. My mom cried for about three hours. I'm not going to repeat what my dad said. He's a doctor and thought he raised me to take care of myself.
Last week I was out at a bar in Chelsea and I met a hot couple. One was Italian and one was a short little blond kid, even shorter than me. They were in their late 20's and wanted me to come back to their place. I'm always really good about disclosing my status, and it usually doesn't make that big a difference to people since I've already talked about playing safe.
I was shocked when they said that they were poz, too. The blond (who I'll call Travis) said they had an open relationship and he took raw cock a lot and got infected about a year ago and passed it on to "Tony." My own dick started to swell as he talked, and I finished my drink and asked if they wanted to head back to their place.
In the cab uptown, they made out with each other and me. Then we got to their place and it got really hot really fast. It was a blur of tongues and hands and my clothes getting pulled off and their pants hitting the floor. And then I was bent over their bed with Travis sucking my cock and Tony eating my ass. It felt fucking awesome and I pushed my hole back against Tony's face.
I heard a click and felt Tony's slicked-up cock against my hole. Raw. I started dripping precum. Travis used that to lube my cock and put his legs up and guided my head into his hole. I just started grunting as Tony started fucking into me harder and harder, picking up a rhythm. I just let him ram me and let that push me into Travis and slowly got deeper and deeper inside him, till I was balls-deep. All raw, all skin.
Tony fucked me faster and faster and faster, and I just kept my cock still in his boyfriend's hole. I'd never been in the middle before and didn't know how to make it work. I also didn't know if I could hold out, since I was feeling more pleasure than I knew was possible. I felt Travis tensing his hole around my dick, and he begged me to fuck him full of my load. I held back.
All of a sudden, Tony started tensing up and said, "FUCK yeah! FUCK yeah! Mnh! Mnh! Mnh! Yeahhhhhhhhh!" And drove in as deep as he could and stopped moving. I knew he was pumping his load into me. That sent me over the edge, and I jackhammered into Travis a few times and felt a wave of warmth and expansion washing over my entire body as I jetted what felt like a quart of cream into his guts. He never touched himself and just kept saying, "Yeah! Breed me dude! Give it to me!"
We cleaned up a little and cuddled up, with me in the middle still. Travis stayed pretty hard and pretty soon was worked up again. I hadn't cleaned out or pushed out any cum, and I was still pretty slick when I felt Travis starting to push into me. He asked if it was okay and I turned my head far enough to kiss him. His boyfriend worked his ass around my cock and soon we were fucking like rabbits again. Travis didn't last long, and after about a minute or so he yanked on my hair and pulled my head back and sucked on my neck, breathing really hard. He slammed his cock in really hard three times and then said, "Take that, bitch! Uhhhh..." That sent me over the edge again and I came inside his boyfriend. By that time it was almost 4 in the morning and we fell asleep inside each other.
It was hot. But don't try that at home, boys. Safe sex is still the way to go.
For a long time I only had protected sex but last week I took a couple more loads. I'm still going to keep telling everyone else to play safe. It's not going to be a picnic when I have to start meds, and I don't want anyone else to feel the same shame and regret. And I definitely don't want anyone to have to see the look on your parents faces when you tell them. That was tough. My mom cried for about three hours. I'm not going to repeat what my dad said. He's a doctor and thought he raised me to take care of myself.
Last week I was out at a bar in Chelsea and I met a hot couple. One was Italian and one was a short little blond kid, even shorter than me. They were in their late 20's and wanted me to come back to their place. I'm always really good about disclosing my status, and it usually doesn't make that big a difference to people since I've already talked about playing safe.
I was shocked when they said that they were poz, too. The blond (who I'll call Travis) said they had an open relationship and he took raw cock a lot and got infected about a year ago and passed it on to "Tony." My own dick started to swell as he talked, and I finished my drink and asked if they wanted to head back to their place.
In the cab uptown, they made out with each other and me. Then we got to their place and it got really hot really fast. It was a blur of tongues and hands and my clothes getting pulled off and their pants hitting the floor. And then I was bent over their bed with Travis sucking my cock and Tony eating my ass. It felt fucking awesome and I pushed my hole back against Tony's face.
I heard a click and felt Tony's slicked-up cock against my hole. Raw. I started dripping precum. Travis used that to lube my cock and put his legs up and guided my head into his hole. I just started grunting as Tony started fucking into me harder and harder, picking up a rhythm. I just let him ram me and let that push me into Travis and slowly got deeper and deeper inside him, till I was balls-deep. All raw, all skin.
Tony fucked me faster and faster and faster, and I just kept my cock still in his boyfriend's hole. I'd never been in the middle before and didn't know how to make it work. I also didn't know if I could hold out, since I was feeling more pleasure than I knew was possible. I felt Travis tensing his hole around my dick, and he begged me to fuck him full of my load. I held back.
All of a sudden, Tony started tensing up and said, "FUCK yeah! FUCK yeah! Mnh! Mnh! Mnh! Yeahhhhhhhhh!" And drove in as deep as he could and stopped moving. I knew he was pumping his load into me. That sent me over the edge, and I jackhammered into Travis a few times and felt a wave of warmth and expansion washing over my entire body as I jetted what felt like a quart of cream into his guts. He never touched himself and just kept saying, "Yeah! Breed me dude! Give it to me!"
We cleaned up a little and cuddled up, with me in the middle still. Travis stayed pretty hard and pretty soon was worked up again. I hadn't cleaned out or pushed out any cum, and I was still pretty slick when I felt Travis starting to push into me. He asked if it was okay and I turned my head far enough to kiss him. His boyfriend worked his ass around my cock and soon we were fucking like rabbits again. Travis didn't last long, and after about a minute or so he yanked on my hair and pulled my head back and sucked on my neck, breathing really hard. He slammed his cock in really hard three times and then said, "Take that, bitch! Uhhhh..." That sent me over the edge again and I came inside his boyfriend. By that time it was almost 4 in the morning and we fell asleep inside each other.
It was hot. But don't try that at home, boys. Safe sex is still the way to go.
9.10.2007
Tested positive.
Sorry that I haven't posted in a while. I've been having a hard time with this.
In my first post for this I said I'd probably end up regretting my behavior. It was stupid to continue it, knowing what was probably in store. I guess everyone still thinks it can't happen to them.
I'm just about to turn 22 years old. With medicine, I may live 20 years. That means I can expect to be dead by 42 and all because of what I did just to feel like I was living for the moment. I'm hot shit, right? I've now lived more than half of the life I can expect to live.
I called this site "Don't Try This at Home" because it sounded daring. Now I mean it. Take care of your body, and if you're already HIV+, don't EVER assume your partner is, too. Or if you don't know, just play safe and get tested.
Life's too short already. Don't fuck it up and make it even shorter. Take it from a little blond twink who isn't even out of fucking college yet and who already knows what the end of his life is probably going to look like.
In my first post for this I said I'd probably end up regretting my behavior. It was stupid to continue it, knowing what was probably in store. I guess everyone still thinks it can't happen to them.
I'm just about to turn 22 years old. With medicine, I may live 20 years. That means I can expect to be dead by 42 and all because of what I did just to feel like I was living for the moment. I'm hot shit, right? I've now lived more than half of the life I can expect to live.
I called this site "Don't Try This at Home" because it sounded daring. Now I mean it. Take care of your body, and if you're already HIV+, don't EVER assume your partner is, too. Or if you don't know, just play safe and get tested.
Life's too short already. Don't fuck it up and make it even shorter. Take it from a little blond twink who isn't even out of fucking college yet and who already knows what the end of his life is probably going to look like.
6.23.2007
My First Post
So, it's Friday night. I'm bored. I'm home with a cold. And I'm starting the blog I've wanted to start since January.
I'm a dude living in Manhattan, and I go to school here. My friends think I'm buttoned-up, straight-laced and level-headed. Usually, I am. I'm into finance, economics and world affairs.
But at night, after the gym and after homework (or, right now, my internship), I am a wild, cum-loving bottom. Like Bareback Confessions, who you can read here: http://confessionsofabarebacktop.blogspot.com/, I am on most sites as a "safe only" bottom. But I'm also on http://www.bareback.com/, and nothing gets me off more than a hot top planting his load deep in my ass.
On New Year's Eve, I had a hot fuck with a dude I had known for a while and had wanted to ride for months. I had always played safe, but he didn't want to. So I rode him raw. And it was so fucking hot that I decided that this was the year to let out my inner cum queen. I started taking it bare every chance I get, and this has been one hot year so far. I've kept a diary, and now I'm starting a blog. I hope you like.
I know it's not safe. I know I'm putting myself at serious risk. But the thrill just won't go away. For those of you who are thinking about trying it - don't. Don't use my site as an excuse to go out and be stupid. For now I'm HIV-, but I'll probably regret this someday. You would too. So instead, use me to live out your own bareback desires through me. Write in. Tell me what you want me to try. If it's not too crazy, I'll do it and I'll write about it for you.
Oh and if you're a top in New York City or nearby, hit me up if you want to have hot, sweaty raw sex and pump your load up my ass. I'm kind of picky but don't count yourself out.
I'm a dude living in Manhattan, and I go to school here. My friends think I'm buttoned-up, straight-laced and level-headed. Usually, I am. I'm into finance, economics and world affairs.
But at night, after the gym and after homework (or, right now, my internship), I am a wild, cum-loving bottom. Like Bareback Confessions, who you can read here: http://confessionsofabarebacktop.blogspot.com/, I am on most sites as a "safe only" bottom. But I'm also on http://www.bareback.com/, and nothing gets me off more than a hot top planting his load deep in my ass.
On New Year's Eve, I had a hot fuck with a dude I had known for a while and had wanted to ride for months. I had always played safe, but he didn't want to. So I rode him raw. And it was so fucking hot that I decided that this was the year to let out my inner cum queen. I started taking it bare every chance I get, and this has been one hot year so far. I've kept a diary, and now I'm starting a blog. I hope you like.
I know it's not safe. I know I'm putting myself at serious risk. But the thrill just won't go away. For those of you who are thinking about trying it - don't. Don't use my site as an excuse to go out and be stupid. For now I'm HIV-, but I'll probably regret this someday. You would too. So instead, use me to live out your own bareback desires through me. Write in. Tell me what you want me to try. If it's not too crazy, I'll do it and I'll write about it for you.
Oh and if you're a top in New York City or nearby, hit me up if you want to have hot, sweaty raw sex and pump your load up my ass. I'm kind of picky but don't count yourself out.
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